just 15 mins. write. day 1

one of my very best and longest friends, hanalei and i have become "accountability buddies"

so basically. i have a hard time writing. hanalei is a great writer and she too has had times where although she wanted to write, had a hard time getting it done. it's funny because hanalei has kept blogs and websites and throughout the years has still encouraged me to write. she's offered me opportunities to write for her sites and watnot.

one would think. fuck yeh! why not right? i mean. they all are great ideas and the opportunities are amazing! the sites themselves are amazing (i think some of them exist still), but for some reason or another i never got to writing. here's where the accountability buddies thing comes in. i do feel its a bit one sided though because...i dont have to remind hanalei to write. it seems like shes always inspired. at least when we speak. she's always in the midst of something. and i believe it. ive told her when we where in high school that i envisioned big things for her. at that time we were good friends in high school but there wasnt much to go on besides what i knew of her throughout our high school experience. so, from time to time hanalei will text me or email me or even call me to remind me to write. and here i am.

i dont know. i used to write a ton. maybe if i set aside time for myself id just do it. like now.

hanalei's email read in response to my lack of motivation to write "...those conditions will never happen, ...just write for 15 mins now, and do that again tomorrow"

hell. i used to keep a Xanga. id write daily, multiple times, with hmtl, pictures, audio and video! lol. so what the fuck happened?

life i guess. i dont remember if it coincided with drinking a lot in my early early 20's. maybe if i look back ill see some pattern.

but as it stands, i think personally im a decent enough writer. i think if i wrote about something im passionate about, im more than decent. i went through looking back at some essays and poems i wrote for some classes in college and i thought to myself on a few of them, "i wrote this?".  thinking back, man when i was inspired, i sure do write well. i also never edited what i wrote. and i probably wont edit this. usually it has to come as a stream of consciousness.

anyway. why dont i write? meh. just keeping it so low on my priority list that it hides itself.

its a little talent hiding out in the closet that's playing hide-n-seek and hasn't realized time was called on the game. 

if i wasnt so lazy, id find a little jpg for that.

i was going to be lazy and just watch some anime. in fact i got 9 mins in (an amazing episode of Sword Art Online 2) and was like "fuck it". "i already looked at my blog today, i could write. why not?"

thatll be all for today. i have a prompt for tomorrow, "all i want..." thanks hanalei. ill work on that tomorrow on my lunch break, just like today.

i voted today by the way. voted yes on 2. medical mj for fl.

(edit)

i said that i wouldnt edit myself. but fuck off.

i feel like i missed some points i wanted to make. i dont have much time for it now though so whatever. hasta la manana!