howdy yall! I haven't been prompted to write in here in a while. its hard to reflect wen you have 32921921734838000 things going on at once. here's a text I saved as a draft to myself...so I wouldn't forget:
reminder to self: mark wants to make a small black booth by the bed...that has a digi cam or sony cam on tripod...on like nighr vision setting...where I can sit and randomly video blog as I so chose. this idea is great bc u can click record on the cam and start pouring out ur brain....as apposed to writing...sometimes u forget things by the time they translate from brain to hand. remember that u want the room to be super dark...for a sense of solitude and quiet...in order to focus and relax. this came to me as I was thinking abt stuff like abt my mom and watnot. I'd write what I thot but I forgot...and it wouldn't come out rite the 2ne time around. u know how that goes. overthinking kills. then u forget everything. hehe I just came back from moving the car on a sat morning....lauren is sleeping beside me....im sorry I was a grump. lol. I like having this note to self. I think the sk3 has a "notes" section....but who really looks at that section? watever. I shud blog high all the time. my mom was always a controller. but that was her defense mechanism after being hurt so much as a kid...and from my father....she kinda blocked those out and started new...I guess in a sense me being born was a turning point. after that she never put herself in a situation or relationship where she'd allow herself to be hurt or brought down. she only looks back fondly to her 1st bf in the phil. that is now a dr with 3 kids. they're love was all romantical....I saw the letters and notes they had for each other. it was sweet. while with my father she tried to have some semblance of ronmance...but all her letters wud say stuff like abt her apologizing for not obeying and my mom weas being abused. that'll change how some1 thinks of love huh? I have to say...with how my mom has changed...its a complete 180...and its kinda scary. she's a lot more mellow...but at the same time she's a little less sharp if u will. just not as on point u know? bc...she used to be always on point to a t. im rambling now. its 10am. we shud get up =)
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end text to self. lmao
haha wow! that was random huh? u know...the thing abt weed...personally...it helps increase the flow of thought. while sober...its like my thoughts are at a slower pace...yet allowing me to piece things together better. creative or emotional expression ftw for me though. I think im at THAT point in my life....I think I've spent too long being the model son. anywho!!!
so wats new?
new job:
got a new job...yes again. the fact that I just quit on a whim isn't so good...but depending on where ur priorities lie...ull see my point. I'd much rather be poor and be able to live freely and with lauren than to be tied to something that was stressing me out. I'd get home late from work with a distressed attitude...and that's not nice. I'd wake up pissed. all I had to look forward to was the few hours I spent with lauren b4 we went to bed and the wkends. I got a new job though in secaucus. the pay is a bit shabbier...but once it goes from temp to perm...there is a dramatic pay increase...im also searching my other options as well.
new place:
we moved into a pseudo 2br shotgun style apt. it has character. size wise we had to be creative with storage since there are NO closets watsoever. and we have a lot of erroneous shit. the place is nice though..and the cats love it bc they have semi-free roam. the kitchen owns and we have a lofted bed now! the housewarming will be soon...possibly in oct...to celebrate oktoberfest...ish
due to the stress of the new job in nyc...and the move...lauren n I had a lotta reorganizing or rethinking to do. lauren started working on monday at another vh...and I think its going well for her...I gotta say...im quite proud. the benefits, pay and hours really gel with what she's been asking for all this time...and the kicker is...her job now is less than half the work. heh.
new plans:
so...I should have went into botany instead of history in my original college plans
college will be on hold until further notice. work is in full effect...wow I became a statistic. but u gotta do wat u gotta do u know? its kinda hard supporting 2 ppl...working f/t...moving...going to skool and paying for all that at the same time. it doesn't help that my credit is shot due to poor decisions on my moms part in the past.
new plans include...some side business stuff. u wanna lend me 5K? I can make a great return on investment. hehe in 3months or so. hehe do it?
the art gallery plans are still a go. I have to remember to contact christine for some contact info.
the side business will be the fuel to the gallery-mobile.
and we want renewable organic energy. haha
other shit:
*time travel is possible
*we live in multiple dimensions
*religion survives due to the endless interpretations...and is needed
u know with religion...I just don't like the elitist attitude some have for/with it. haha im not talking abt u rr btw! methinks ur far from elitist. hehe...some soul searching does wonders for every1.
I think ever1 shud do so at some point...otherwise...u remain oblivious or complacent.
I really wonder what (if they do exist) intelligent life on other planets in scattered parts of the universe are thinking? wat do we seem like to them?
hmm...I have 20 mins left on lunch...I missed laurens lunch break I think. ack! that stinks =(
*video blogging ftw perhaps?
I think that's all for now. guna have dinner with some fam tonite...sounds splendid.
byeee =P
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
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