regret.

i wish i could just quote something or write out a song lyric to encompass my thoughts and feelings. i cant work right now. i cant think right now.

the only thing i can do is feel regret.

i am regretting time lost with my mom. i should have called you more, spoken to you more, shown you how much i love you - more.

instead i wasted time with excuses.

time spent

time spent does not equate to feelings had
so short our time was together
yet i held thoughts and feelings
that im expected to dissolve into

nothing

dont mess with those girls she said
you'll get hurt in the end she said

yet i jump in blindly like the aries i am

full of fire and passion. hoping for chance

and shit falls through like sand in the hourglass

moving faster and faster til

nothing. again.

move on she suggests. and dont worry.

i will.

but i am no robot.

i still feel.

im not some experience to be had.
i dont just go away when asked.
im a human.

with thoughts and feelings.

time spent short as it may have been.
i held these feelings, openly telling you
what i had within.

feeling how i felt made you run away.

thats okay. you'll understand someday.

Consciousness.

How, when, and why are never accurately answered. How did we come into consciousness? Why did we become conscious? Is there a reason? What other creatures are conscious? Is our consciousness just a portion of the consciousness experienced by the universe and in time we were just able to slowly tap into the universe?

Dont miss out

Dont miss out on something great, because of fear. The biggest breakthroughs in life happen when you overcome fear and surpass the imaginary boundaries that your mind has put in place.

meh.

Merp

Dont fuckin flake.

Please.