Sometimes. Sometimes ill think to myself about where my life is. Where i was headed or am headed now.
Sometimes ill think about it all...all the twists and turns. The complexities, the simple times. Ill think...ugh.
Ugh. Im just tired.
Some days itll be good. Ill feel like theres some direction. Some movement. And maybe the choices ive made were for the better.
But when im tired - Mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually...it's hard to feel good about the life you live.
I have lots to be thankful and happy about. I have a great daughter...although she tires me out...she is still a beacon of hope and happiness for me. While this is true...i cant rely on her for MY own happiness. I have a great and understanding gf. An awesome wife...albeit our situation is pretty funky right now.
So what makes me happy? I guess im not too sure. And when i get there...will it keep me happy? And is that what i really want..and is it really making me happy? I just dont know sometimes.
Is it me not being satisfied or is it more of me not knowing wtf i want.
Sometimes what i want isnt good for everyone else...so i bite my tongue.
I just want happiness. I want to feel fullfilled.
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