howdy.

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let me preface this with...this is my 5th successful (or at least i hope this will be one of them) blog style websites that i have or had during my time with the internets. i've had an opendiary, livejournal, xanga, myspace, facebook and now a blogspot. granted, myspace and facebook are now more considered "social networking" websites...they all really started as blog websites really...that got out of control. i kind of miss this whole idea that i can just blog and blog...and if someone wanted to comment..they can. i feel that the freeness of a social networking site has gone way too commercial and there's just not room for actual personal growth and/or expression. yes...you can hook up your myspace..but are you really showing ur personal style? or are you merely copying some css style sheet and changing the colors around? if you ask me, all those ppl that try to add soo much to their whatever page is masking the fact that they really dont have anything (of value) to say.

i like the feel of this, it's really livejournal-ish...but for some reason i got tired of lj. maybe i just got bored of it...or got to busy with other crap.

i'd like to keep up with this one and see how it works out in the end. lts (i'll use acronyms because everyone else is doing the same..lmao) came up with a snazzy url name and title for my blogger...i think it works! its nothing that i've used before like my old Flipunkid412 moniker and it's pretty clever to boot.

h'okay...with that all being said...here's a little info about me:

at present i am 25 y/o standing at 5ft 11 in. and im pretty much fat

you can change the word "fat" and replace it with any euphamism that you like...but it still boils down to the fact that i am medically considered "obese" thank god im not "morbidly obese". did you know that if you are considered "morbidly obese" you can receive SSI disability benefits?? haha my mom and i knew this shim named Freddie. Freddie was born a man and lived his life as a woman...his female name was "Chantal" LMAO! far cry from "Freddie" huh? funky. Freddie's sexuality is an entire story on its own. anyways...Freddie is like...600 lbs. he is on section 8 which provides ppl with low income, housing at ridiculously low cost. her rent at the time was 50 buck a month...for a 2 br. WTF? haha to add on that she received welfare benefits of up to $400/mo as well as $150/mo for food, medicaid and more money from disability. so basically she was living off the govt for being fat. she has since moved to fl and purchased her own house from the money she saved up over the years of living off the govt. fun times.

more about me...

i should have graduated college in 2004. i took off school sporadically for the past 8 years due to financial and familial issues. i also was burned out from all the crap i had going on in my life. i guess you can say that i am more determined to finish up school now. i must say though...school has lost its luster and sense of awe. it's still pretty exciting though! i was a history major for a while and i recently switched to finance. it may be a good move for me as the job i am doing now is related to this field and there is great potential for growth in the finance field. i miss the idea of being able to inspire young minds and actually providing a decent education...but that'll have to take a backseat while i focus on maintaining and establishing a fledgling family. i'm pretty sure that once school is over i'll be able to command my salary.

i plan on finishing up school, saving money, and opening a business of my own. this whole...answering to random bosses that are clearly inferior to me thing...isnt working out. i hate having to explain something to my frekkin boss because she cant understand simple math and then have to redo the work that i just spent the entire day doing...only to find out at the end of the day that she finally realized my points and wants the original work because what i did originally was correct all along. oi

religious views? oh god.

this is an ongoing question. does it even really matter? i will say that i do not subscribe to the traditional view of god or gods. whatev. christianity and all of its other retarded cousins can really suck it. it works for some, but not for me...and please...please dont call me "brother mark" we arent related...well possibly if you go back far enough. my mom is on this whole trip that if i go with her to church that the holy spirit will enter my soul and change me for the better. i dont think i need jesus to invade my body in any way. if you "need jesus" why did god give us free will to begin with? and if god is so good...why all the evil in the world...no no..dont say it..bc i know what you'll say..its the devil right? let me school you for a sec...the modern idea of hell as we know it..is a fallacy. its a idea for so called good ppl to impose on evil ppl so they have fear. i guess sometimes the threat of hell is one of the only things you can do to set ppl straight...but please..its not real. the idea of god is fairly new in human history...the idea of an afterlife is older while the idea of hell is newer than both. so i'd probably believe in god before i believe in the devil or hell...but i think i would say that an afterlife is more probable than both. i think that to everything there is a beginning and an end. otherwise existance wouldnt exist.

dont you think its a little self centered to think that one religion trumps all religions..and that one idea of god beats all others? haha what if the ancient greeks or romans where right? modern day jews and catholics would shit themselves...not only that...but it would also make some sense. Christianity is simply an amalgamation of all religions. Saints? ...or do you mean...greek gods and goddesses? Jesus? or do you mean...Jupiter..or Zeus? Immaculate conception? or do you mean divine births of ancient gods? Christmas..is a pagan holiday..so is Easter. shit...ppl dont even know what jesus REALLY looked like. some ppl say hes black. and once you get over what jesus looks like...what does god look like? is god a he..or a thing..at all? is it an energy? or just that initial chemical spark that started it all. haha...god could be a mistake! just like how some women accidentaly get pregnant...a la jamie lynn spears. What if the universe was created by accident and things just flowed from there. what if all ppl and beings that perish have a soul...their bodies decompose and give life to stuff..and their spirits turn into energy which would explain the ever expanding universe. havent they discovered the key to the universe already though? somewhere i read "the ever expanding universe is due to a phenomena called 'dark matter'" w0o0o! yey science.

how about parallel universes? haha oh man ill be writing all night.

newho.

i like all types of music. although i would probably choose to listen to some Jimi or Weezer or Nirvana or Cibo Matto before i listen to something else

im a dork, geek, goof, doofus or butthead but i am not...a dweeb.

i likes me some pot or some may call it the tree of life..or the burning bush

i'm married to my soulmate. she gets me =D

yey lts.

i <3>

i think thats all for now. i really wanted to talk about how crappy my day was at work...but i went off on a tangent. damn you brain!